birthday
birthdays are a somber time for me. I get too caught up in what I think I should have accomplished by this time, and how much of it I haven't.
a number of fun things happened in the last few weeks though -
I flew to Vegas for a few days to attend the When We Were Young fest, specifically to see My Chemical Romance, but the show I really ended up enjoying was Boys Like Girls. I hadn't even planned on seeing them because I'd forgotten who they are, but I had some spare time and tagged along with a friend. it only took a few minutes for me to remember and I immediately reverted to a 14 year old. the vocalist looks like a younger Pedro Pascal and smoked multiple cigarettes on stage. hottest man I've seen in decades.
last weekend I drove down to Olympia for normal for girls (I can't find it on social right now but this is the twitch it's streamed to), the show put on by swimmy and jami and mina and others. it turns out I wasn't quite ready for loud music for multiple hours yet, but I did have a fun time sitting in the back drawing the venue and learned a lot about perspective and lighting on curved ceilings.
also I quit my job. this is, as you might expect, a complicated subject, and I don't think I'll get into it in public. tl;dr instead of stressed and depressed I am now calm and depressed, which I would classify as an improvement overall. I don't know what I'm doing next, and I am intentionally letting myself be alive without thinking about it. employment can come after I've figured out how to live with myself.
in conclusion, the current state of my life is the same as the snowflakes in a snow globe. just gonna have to wait for them to slowly settle down on the ground.
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listening to: Magpie - Peach Pit
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